God I don't get it. How can they think that I am so evil and bad but in all reality, the only logical conclusion is that they themselves are doing evil things.
I confess that I am not telling them everything they want to hear, but every detail of my life is NOT their business. My relationship with my Dad is- just that- MY relationship with my Dad.
Is it my responsibility to cover his bases? He should step up, but since he isn't does that mean that I am to take over? I can only do my part. I refuse to be everyones everything. Thats your job not mine. It is tempting to spill secrets that I hold for others to make my life easier, but what kind of integrity would that be?
I trust you with the story of the lives of each of of my family members, I just don't trust them with each others stories. I never thought that the ruthlessness of humanity, the evil of this world could be so apparent in the voices and lives of the people closest to me.
Its scary. Please be with me.
